Thanx...

Thank God...

PMR result juz out, and my bro gets 7A...

Everyone is happy...so am I...

Lots of plp don't like him...

they said he is weird in lots of aspects...

he is quite emo...(like me??)

he nids cares, loves, confidents, trusts from others...esp: muｍ

Ｉ　ｈｏｐｅ　ｈｅ　ｃａｎ　ｆｏｒｇｉｖｅ　ｓｏｍｅｂｏｄｙ　ｏｎｅ　ｄａｙ．．． Ｉ＇ｌｌ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｂｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｈｉｍ．．． ａｓ　ｐｒｏｍｉｓｅｄ．．．

Devastated...

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Dear Sarah,

I regret to advise that your application for the International Undergraduate Fees Scholarship has been unsuccessful.

I opened my mail box...this was what I received 2 minutes ago...

Sudden blank in my mind...

Why?Why?Why?WHY?why?why?why?why?why?

I was totally spaced out...

Since I stepped into ICPU (last year), I told myself I muz work for scholarship...I muz get high marks...I WANNA RELIEVE MY PARENT'S BURDEN...I WANNA THE FINANCIAL AID....

Hence, I studied hard, no matter what...

I did my assigments as perfect as possible...

I even didn't exercise and do sport for the whole year,...and juz collapsed on the study table...

EVERYDAY....STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.... I was screwed up...
My roommates said I was cRAzy....

At last, I got straight A's in all subjects...total: 89%

SO WHAT????

I fail......totally fail....Failure...........FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!

My family and I put high hope on that ...my teacher as well...

I dunnoe how to face them...I even not dare to tell them...

GloOMY........

CAN someone tell me why ?

bEing devastated spiritually, emotionally, psychologically...

What the hell is this night....shit to death...