二月份

转眼间要上大学二年级了，剩下三个星期，错综复杂的心情让我很矛盾。。是期待?害怕?焦虑?

恩典小组在初三晚上有新年聚餐，有三十余人出席，备有各种佳肴。享用完后，大家就有一段诗歌赞美的时光。。唱着歌，心中的喜悦，平安无法形容，真想时间就永远停留在此刻。

2011年是我第一次在异乡过年，俗语说:"每逢佳节倍思亲"，我终于明白了。

除夕当晚，姑婆煮了些佳肴来庆贺，之后我们就去祷告会。。很快就结束了。回到家中的小房间里，顿时感到莫名的寂寞，空虚。。便上网游荡。过不久，绿姐发来短信，提醒我要打电话回家祝家人新年快乐。但是我没打，因为他们这时非常忙。。想着想着就落泪了。

初一有上班，上到六点就别人来代班了，顿时又担忧起来，害怕自己晚上一个人待在房间里。。所以就从早上上班起，一直在筹划着下了班后要做些什么，就问了好几个朋友出来吃年饭，可惜只有一个能，所以就取消了。可是，就在时间滴答滴答地走向5。40时，杰森说:"官人今天龙体欠安，能否帮我代班?" 我答应了!!至少我有事做，否则就又得愁了。感谢神。九点下了班后，由强哥和刘扬送我回家，回到家才觉得身体累了，想就趴在床上一觉睡天亮。可是，这时候家人在线上了。我终于等到了。可是谈话间并不愉快，我所说，所做。。得不到认同。一半目前为着转系和学费的事情弄得心烦意乱。。到最后，他们又很忙，下线了。。眼泪不受控制。

初二上12个小时的班，所以不用烦着晚间的节目。可是当晚7。30绿姐来。。我以为在做梦，当她第二次出现在店门口时，我就确定我不是做梦。我感到愧疚，因为她足足等了我一小时半。。真的很对不起她了。每每见到她都很高兴。。很感谢神让我遇到她。当晚，姐姐送我回家，停在家门前。。聊的很愉快。可是当我提起在初一给家人拜年后，我突然之间就崩溃了。眼泪直流不受控制，一句话都说不出。。我尝试放松。。可就是不行。我匆忙下了车，告诉她没事，瞥着脸进了门。。当晚我的心累，比做了12小时的身子更累。。我不想姐姐为我担心，我的事微不足道的，她有太多的重担等着她。。我帮也帮不上，只能为她祈祷。

唯一能做的就是不住的祷告，交托。。凡事谢恩。。=)

很惋惜的是查里(韩国寿司员工)被调到别的地方上班了。He is just like my brother...his wife, Eun Hee and kid, Joo Yong..they are such a nice plp...Eun Hee talented in playing piano and clarinet, charlie himself good at flute...Also get to know Sam Chun, Staicy, Jason, and Pal...really grateful to know them...Charlie taught me some of the korean words:

Anyo : good morning, good night, good bye
Oba: brother
Ajutshi: uncle
Omni: female call sister
Nuna: male call sister
Eliwa: hug hug
Japanese:
Ohaiyo Kuzaimatze: good morning
Konichiwa: good afternoon
Kombawa: good night
Sinimasih: u r welcome

Well...going to finish here...continue to pray yea:)

这次上来博客是用阔别已久的中文，感觉有点生疏。。。如果是小弟应该没问题吧!
才发现我已经完成大学第一年了， 感觉不可思议。。。当中的酸甜苦辣如果不是神的带领，我根本就无法一个人熬过来，感谢神奇妙的作为!

新的一年，期望有新的属灵生命，能看得开，凡事仰望并交托给阿爸父神。。。
现再呢在做暑假工作，当"推拿学徒"(谢谢你绿琪阿姐^^)收录还算不错。。。
回首过去在绿琪阿姐家，学到不少东西。。。在餐馆打工也对红，白，啤酒有了认识。。。

打工让我成长了不少，待人处事之道非常重要，有坚定的意念及信心是不可或缺的。
人与人之间的情谊是微妙的。付出，给予，帮助，领受。。。之间的种种轮回。

顺服。。。感恩

Well...been long time no blogging...:X

I'm really pleased to have an average of As in chem114, chem115, stat 193, psyc122, biol111, btec101, bmsc114, bmsc117. all these are the glory of lord jesus..appreciate and grateful...
And now is summer holiday...busy on finding jobs to earn the flight ticket back to hometown next year...oso need the money for next year living...
Thinking back, i used to work as waitress in cafe 93, handout delivery, the long bar restaurant...but all quit due to some reasons...
Nevertheless, God still open the other path for me...learning chinese massage at the moment, and will go to Dragon restaurant to have first try doing waiting...

Ouch...1 more to mention...I have been working as a personal carer in one of my churchmate house for 5 weeks...she was infected by staphylococci bacteria and needed IV drip for 5 weeks...
During that time, I really pleased and grateful to have the chance to serve and help her...And no more hiding myself, but express my feeling truely ...I should say, at home..that's the feeling...
I have learnt lots of things from her, even a small thing or most of the people not even bother it...
we know each other more in these 5 weeks, (as we din't talk eventhough we will see each other every sunday in church)...talking our childhood, joking, talking food, talking masterchef, talking red + white wine + beer, talking making tea ways, talking NZ share, knowing PM of NZ, talking miners of pike river, watching movies, share god's words, and doing some light labour together, ...additional, first time making blueberry and strawberry+ cinammon muffins with her...first time eating her cooking- korean spicy instant noodle with some vege's and egg...really tasty!!love it...hahaha
THank you buddy... i watched NZ News , Forecast weather the most at your home...
May God heal your wound and build your immunity stronger than before...

Hmm...Staying here been 10 months...hope everthg goes smooth...with god's holy spirit with me, lead me, guide me...

Miss my family, friends in kampua town...

Road Trip -AUGUST 2010

三天两夜之旅：WAITOMO-RUAKURI+ GLOWORM CAVES + TAUPO LAKE

好玩。。。赞！！！回家途中回味儿歌，有好几首都忘了。。。感谢主，感恩。。。

Will start new sem nxt week...4 papers: BMSC114, BMSC117, CHEM115, PSYC122
Will nid to start doing sth insistingly, no more excuse
Will vacuum, wipe and tidy up the bedroom tomorrow b4 new sem start
Will stop watching movies

Praise the Lord, I still can get A- for BTEC 101, which i did terribly during the final
Thank you Lord for giving me strength and power

Realise that last minute study is freaking terrible
Don wan to repeat again in further study
Revise...is the MUST

Again
Diet problem
Balance diet and be control

Working is essential
Need part-time job as I need money.

University life...

Am now having easter break + 2 weeks mid-term break...3 more days to go b4 the busy uni life starts...

Monday- chem 114 report due, Tues-Stat 193 assignment due, wed- chem 114 assignment due + 2 hrs bio 111 laboratory, thurs- 3hrs chem 114 laboratory...and any others project assigments, mandatory requirement, tests...the so called uni life...

Searching tool like google is helpful to all of the students as it provides couple of information, but there are some flaws in it...

Juz realise the eating habit is more likely the kiwi's style...no rice is ok for me...but the miserable thg is it makes me consume lots of high sugar and carbohydrate food, esp, bread, cookies, muesli bar, chocolate and other snacks...as those are high calories food...

U sure will see there will be 1 person out of 20 on the street walks slowly, path by path, as he/she is too fat...the so called fat is not juz the normal "fat", but terribly FAT, if compared to m'sian's "FAT"...this is the 1st time i meet those kind of plp...but, there are also plp who are terribly " skinny" , the bone is obviously can be seen...

And i don't want to b'come tat Fat after staying in NZ, as somebody will torn me into pieces if i fly back to m'sia 1 day...i don't want to be cursed...so from now on i need to reduce the caloric intake...can i just replace 2 slices of bread with 1 apple for my lunch start from next week??tat's mean there will b 2 slices of sandwiches + hams (instead of 4 slices) and 1 apple...can i do it??is that possible for me to have them as my lunch insistingly and persistently??pray for me ya=)

Always waiting somebody online...as i wanna video messenger with***, i got lots of thg to tell and i wanna let ***to know my life here...but ***is always busy...busy all the time...haiz...mayb i nid to be more independent and be strong by myself...

Am not studyING and srugglING hard as my college life b4 in m'sia...as there is no scholarship for me to apply...is that alright for me to do like that??will it make me pass all the papers??

But, for sure, i need lots of exercise to burn my calories...just the MUST thing to do every night, that is do 20 times sit up before sleep...^^hope that will lose my tummy 1 day...lolX

just wanna blogging b4 the start of my uni life, as it will be going to busy b4 the finals in june...

GoOd LuCK to me....

The new year song is ringing at my ears...today is the second last day of chinese new year...and also daddy back to hometown today, now, should be on the quantas plane, on the way to singapore from sydney...his flight was at 4am (sat), i woke up at 3.30am to see his last time in new zealand( before i graduate, i think so )...i was like sad, moody, and sorrow...speechless until he left the house...i was not allowed to send him to the airport as uncle afraid that i would burst out...thus, it is the time to let him go...as my grandpa was ill...

I'm turning 20 soon, should'nt act childish anymore...is time for getting mature and independent in kiwi's place, as i'm a foreigner...boarding in other's land...

I just realise i love malaysia's food, the hospitality, the warmess, and the sunlight...just realise, seriously...

Jackie said i should'nt make my mum worried me much again, coz' i'm no more a child...tat's right, i need to learn from her...should spend the money wisely, good time management skills, confidents, and dare to speak out my m'sia's eng as well...

It's time to make me gain experience, and live an awesome life, strive to my future goal, to enable my family to live a life, with full of God's bless, gaiety and enjoyment...I wanna all those suffers get rid of my families' shoulder, esp dad and mum...

With the help and bless of jesus christ, I hope to be adaptable to the new country without fear...and gurl, chocolate should be banned, stop over eating, getting fatter...I DON WANT....ARGHHHHHHHHH.....

........................AND NO MORE EMO....NO MORE!!!

AND is the time to strive to success, as I MUST, MUST ,AND MUST SUCCEED!!!