The new year song is ringing at my ears...today is the second last day of chinese new year...and also daddy back to hometown today, now, should be on the quantas plane, on the way to singapore from sydney...his flight was at 4am (sat), i woke up at 3.30am to see his last time in new zealand( before i graduate, i think so )...i was like sad, moody, and sorrow...speechless until he left the house...i was not allowed to send him to the airport as uncle afraid that i would burst out...thus, it is the time to let him go...as my grandpa was ill...

I'm turning 20 soon, should'nt act childish anymore...is time for getting mature and independent in kiwi's place, as i'm a foreigner...boarding in other's land...

I just realise i love malaysia's food, the hospitality, the warmess, and the sunlight...just realise, seriously...

Jackie said i should'nt make my mum worried me much again, coz' i'm no more a child...tat's right, i need to learn from her...should spend the money wisely, good time management skills, confidents, and dare to speak out my m'sia's eng as well...

It's time to make me gain experience, and live an awesome life, strive to my future goal, to enable my family to live a life, with full of God's bless, gaiety and enjoyment...I wanna all those suffers get rid of my families' shoulder, esp dad and mum...

With the help and bless of jesus christ, I hope to be adaptable to the new country without fear...and gurl, chocolate should be banned, stop over eating, getting fatter...I DON WANT....ARGHHHHHHHHH.....

........................AND NO MORE EMO....NO MORE!!!

AND is the time to strive to success, as I MUST, MUST ,AND MUST SUCCEED!!!