Devastated...

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Dear Sarah,

I regret to advise that your application for the International Undergraduate Fees Scholarship has been unsuccessful.

I opened my mail box...this was what I received 2 minutes ago...

Sudden blank in my mind...

Why?Why?Why?WHY?why?why?why?why?why?

I was totally spaced out...

Since I stepped into ICPU (last year), I told myself I muz work for scholarship...I muz get high marks...I WANNA RELIEVE MY PARENT'S BURDEN...I WANNA THE FINANCIAL AID....

Hence, I studied hard, no matter what...

I did my assigments as perfect as possible...

I even didn't exercise and do sport for the whole year,...and juz collapsed on the study table...

EVERYDAY....STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.. STUDY.... I was screwed up...
My roommates said I was cRAzy....

At last, I got straight A's in all subjects...total: 89%

SO WHAT????

I fail......totally fail....Failure...........FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!

My family and I put high hope on that ...my teacher as well...

I dunnoe how to face them...I even not dare to tell them...

GloOMY........

CAN someone tell me why ?

bEing devastated spiritually, emotionally, psychologically...

What the hell is this night....shit to death...